My year in review 2009

Well let's  see I joined facebook on the request of my son and had no idea what it would bring, the feelings of unhappiness and happiness it could bring.. It has been a lot of fun seeing what the people I used to know and do know have been up to.. But at the same time it is very hard to see what I have been missing out on in life I have lived in my own little world for so long that I do not even know how to reconnect with friends any more I feel like I have nothing  in common with anyone or maybe just think that I don't.

The summer has been a bummer we did not get on the boat barley at all do to the weather and family issues . Well I tell you what that will not be the case next summer the boat will come before anyone and anything that is my saving grace no matter how hard a day or week I have had I can go on the water and just let it all go for a couple of hours.. 

For the rest of year well that is what is.. I know that next year will be better I have goals and plans and nothing is going to stand in my way. I am going to enjoy my family a little more and my life a lot more.

Maybe there is some thing bigger and better out their for me and maybe I will find it and maybe I will not.But what I do know is that every day I am going to write in my blog even if nothing interesting happens or if I really have nothing to write at all.. You should always write at least 5 things you are thankful for everyday even if it is the same 5 things everyday some day it will change and it will be a different 5 things.. I will find motivation to do at least one thing a day that makes me happy even if it is as small as taking a hot bath but it will be for me and nobody else.. 

I will work hard on being a better Mom and Wife and then the rest of my life should fall right into place..I will stop thinking about what I am missing and start enjoying what I have.. Just be happy all  the time like I used to be, like I am at work.. Maybe my happy place in life will be at home instead of at work, I think I need to work hard on changing that or making them equal in my life, and maybe I will find peace at home like I do at work...

So here is to a new start and a great 2010!!!!  

MAY ALL YOUR HOPES AND DREAMS COME TRUE!!!!!!!!

Life

Why is it that some people know exactly what they want to do are meant to do in life and some people just go through life always wondering what their purpose is? What their higher calling is ?  I know I ask my self this often. 


I have a good life we get by could have a little more money to make all are dreams come true but all in all we have a happy life we are all healthy we live a simple life but try to make it a fun and happy one. So why do people like me feel like their should be more,  is it because we do not have a lot of demands on us because we live a simple life that we think there is something missing? We run on are on time we hardly ever plan anything most things are just done on a whim.. 


Is it because it is just us we have no real steady friends,  I have  no close girlfriends to chit chat with just me and my boys.. is that what my whole problem in this world is.. I miss having a close girlfriend to hang and chat with to go on girl weekend outings/vacations with.. I often think of  just packing up and moving  us some where different to a new state,town etc. Live a different life I love MN but am so tired of the cold I just want some where where I can lay on  the beach and feel the sun.. Maybe some day I will get there .... I do not mind the snow but really hate the cold maybe I could live some where I can get to the snow and also get to the ocean kinda the best of both worlds is that possible?  Maybe I should start looking so when the time comes I will have some ideas on where I would want to live...